Friday, August 7, 2009
I was a woman full of parenting ideals. I then became a mother of one child with just a few less parenting ideals and now as a mother of two I have even fewer parenting ideals. And all ideals go out the window when I walk into my sweet little girl's room after she's been crying for a couple minutes and intend on only patting her back and walking out and then I touch her warm little body and can't help but pick her up and then she wraps her arms around me and nuzzles her head into my shoulder and we fit together like we were made for each other (which we were) and then I can't help but just savor the moment for just one more song and then before I know it she's sound asleep in my arms and I don't even care. I don't even care because these moments will be gone in the blink of an eye. So I guess my ideals are changing. Yes, I want a daughter who can put herself to sleep but more importantly I want a daughter who feels loved unconditionally. I want to absorb every single moment with my children for who they are in that very instant because they're changing so darn fast!